the boy is five

yesterday eliot turned five. the official age of big boys we have been informed. big indeed. big heart, big hugs, big smiles. eliot you changed our lives in so many ways i cant even begin to keep track. i cant imagine life without you.

i remember life before you, and sometimes it seems nice, but i could never go back. i wouldnt trade you holding my hand on the couch. i wouldnt trade you telling me that you think i am great on a whim. i wouldnt trade telling stories under the covers with you for anything. nothing.

i know that soon enough you wont be asking me to play transformers, that you will be off with your buddies doing what buddies do. i know that soon you wont let me give you kisses outside of school. i know that soon mom and dad will be soooo embarrassing, but i know too that in our house, away from buddies, school, and anyone else you will let me give you hugs and kisses and rumple your hair and scratch your back. dont worry, i wont tell. it will be our secret.

eliot - "you are my sweetest downfall. i loved you first"