yes

a dear friend shared these wise words by andré gide with me yesterday. and dontcha know, it's just what i needed to hear.

it's may

actually may is nearly half over. wow. yeah. i'm not really sure how that happened, except to say that we've been busy. like super busy. like trying to figure out how to make a whole new life in a whole new state halfway across the country work. how do you do that and also spend time with people you are going to miss so much it makes you want to spit? i don't have any good answers for any of this. none whatsoever. what i can say is this. yesterday as i was driving to work i was listening to this story about a family in india who has been playing traditional music for six generations. and now the last member of the family who has learned how to play the music is a 14 year old boy who wants to go to college someday. if and when he does, the music might stop with him. they asked his 81 year old uncle what he thought about that, and his response was "we can't know about that right now".

we can't know about that right now. it's so true. i've heard this before, but it has never hit me like it did yesterday. there are so many things, so very many things in my life that i just can't know about right now. hopefully i'll know about them later, and maybe even forget about them as unimportant. but for now, i just have to be at peace with not knowing. until the time comes to know.